LOVE is not just a word…

LOVE is not just a word…

To Me Love is not just a word
Its a feeling that is unexplainable
The feeling love is unforgetable
The way you love that special person..

I cannot help I love you unconditionally..

People tell me to move on..
that this love simply cannot be…
THe hurt I bring to you..
THe hurt you bring to me..
It is only because of obstacles we both have to overcome..

I am SCARED but WILLING…
How about you…
Nothing ventured nothing gained..
In my heart you always remain..
I wish this battle was at its end…
and in your arms I could wake up and say WE BOTH TOGETHER  WIN..

You are not perfect and neither am I..
but for me you are the ONLY guy…
I know im crazy at times and so are you…
Perfectly imperfect and crazy for the one who
My heart constantly reminds me I am meant to be with..

Not a moment goes by that I do not wish…
Simply to be with you…
In a perfect world…
I would wake up to gaze into your loving eyes…
but I fear you have to learn to love yourself first..
to let go of the demons that haunt you…
and realize.. I never left.. nor do I ever really leave..and
By the gods man I am not her..
I get mad and write things I never mean…

I am not like anyone from your past
and at times I fear you have me all wrong…
I know you can read people.. but you are so used
to reading people with bad or selfish intentions..
I begin to wonder if you can ever see what is good..

I know trust is hard… For the both of us…
Every time we start to trust each other.. something goes
horribly wrong and again we fight… I dont want to fight anymore..
I want to be everything to you as you may not believe but you already
are to me…

I know you are not prepared.. you tell me not to wait for something that
may never happen..
but I choose to because the revelation I have had is without you…
I feel so incomplete.. like a huge part of me is missing…

I dont care about the difference in our age and background…
I could give two cents what people say…
You have and always will be worth it until my die day…

Like in the movie Avatar.. I see you… and long for the
day you will truly see me…
Until then what can I say..
I live only for that day and everything I do
goes to make us one day happier for all of my financial preparations..
You see I never want you to long for anything and not be able to have it

I don’t want to go anywhere without you…
Maybe its wrong.. but I dont care anymore about my hurt feelings.. they come and go.. I wish somehow some way I could make you understand how much I love you.. and if you asked forever I would stay.. Because forever is how long
I will love you… My heart has made its choice.. You are my one true love..
and if I am not yours so be it.. I just want you to be happy and I mean it…

I will always be where you can find me…
I never want to lose you from my life…
If I am lucky one day we will live, learn and grow together…
 
even if right now are paths seem so far apart…
I cannot be with anyone but you..
Don’t you see its simply not fair..
I will always compare them to you..
and they will always be lacking that
special ingrediant that makes you .. you..
and in the end I will always hurt them and its simply unfair..

So despite your telling me to move on…
and everyone else too…
I regret to inform you…
Its something I just cannot do…

Forever is how long I promise…
My heart shall remain true…
Its not just a word you see..
but a solemn vow from me to you…

“I LOVE YOU…”
and losing you has always been my biggest fear and greatest weakness…